Since I can remember I have always wanted to be a mother. I actually feel like it was more than a desire, but a calling that God has placed on my heart. The Bible says in Psalms 37: 4, “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” As excited as I was when I peed on that little stick and found out I was pregnant, my excitement was also met with anxiety,fear and worry. “What if i’m not ready? How will we afford a child? Can I be a good mother? What if I am horrible at this?” These thoughts still come to me even after being a mother for a year and a half. I take comfort in knowing that when God calls us He also equips us for the task. Hebrews 13: 20 & 21 says, ” Now may the the God of peace who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, equip you with everything good that you may do his will, working in us that which is pleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.” I don’t have it together, I so often get it wrong more than I get it right, but I am beginning to see that the only way to get it right is to completely lean on God. I am a sinner, I will always be a sinner and will therefore always be fallible but if I can humble myself I can show my child (and one day children) that God loves us through our mistakes and is always there for us and ready to catch us when we fall. God has called me to be a mother and its such a beautiful thing.
Call of Duty: Gods Call for Mothers