This^^^^ ALL DAY THIS! I need this pasted to my forehead so whenever I look in the mirror I am reminded to enjoy the season I am currently in. This has been a struggle of mine since, well, forever I guess. It is a pet peeve of my husbands because since he met me I have been longing for the next step, the next season, of life. When we were dating it was, “When are we going to get engaged?” From engagement to marriage we set the date fairly quick so it wasn’t so much of a “When?”, as it was a wishing the time away so we could be married. Then after marriage I was in the “When are we going to try for a kid?” We had settled on 2 years but God had other plans and He gave me the desire of my heart early! I think for the first time in the 3 years of marriage we both find ourselves in a “when will we be in X season of life?” Since we have been together he has worked in a chemical plant doing shipping alongside his father (just some added info ;)). There is nothing wrong with his job, but he has felt God calling him into the ministry for a while and feels that he can no longer, in good conscience run from this calling that God has given. However, when God calls us He wants us to be fully equipped, especially when one is in a place of authority, so now comes the education and teaching before he can truly enter his career. He has 2 years left for his bachelors and then 3 years of seminary. So, even though this time will be one of growth and learning, both spiritually and mentally, it is still a time of waiting and not yet truly being in a “career” so to speak. This is hard for both of us, for him because he is eager to finally be doing what the Lord has called him to be doing, and me because I am eager to feel more settled and secure. I am often thinking, “When will we move away, I have always wanted to love somewhere new and different away from our hometown. When is that ever going to happen? Is it ever going to happen?”, ” When are we going to be settled in an actual home that is all ours to decorate, with a back yard and everything?” “when? When? When?”
I hate this about myself, I hate that I can not seem to sit still and find contentment in my here and now. I want to change this about me. I want to be at peace with where I am right now. Sunday, August 17 of 2014. So, I want to first and foremost look to God’s word and see what His Word has to say about being content in my season of life.
Philippians 4:11- 12
“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need”
1 Timothy 6:6-7
“But godliness with contentment is great gain, for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content.”
“Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
‘Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.‘”
Just in reading these verses I am convicted of my selfishness in wanting things when and how I want them and not trusting in the Lord and in His promises and will for me and my family. I am so thankful for the Lord and His graciousness and the love He lavishes upon me in spite of my unbelief. In writing this I am reminded of Jeremiah 29:11 which says, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” I want to take all of these truths found in The Word and place them in my heart.
I think something that might help me in this would be to make a list of affirmations, not only of contentment but thanksgiving.
- I will be content in the home in which I reside, and thankful for the roof over my head as well as all the things in it.
- I will be content in the job that my husband has and I will continue to be thankful for the fact that it provides for us so that I might stay home and be with my son full-time.
- I will be content in being in my hometown and continue to be thankful for my family and friends both new and old.
- I will be content with my son in his learning and be thankful for all of the little things and accomplishments I see in him.
- I will be content in life and be thankful for all of the blessings the Lord has placed in front of me.
This list is not perfect and I am sure things will need to be added to it and although I know at times I will fail miserably in this, but it is my hope that the Lord will work His way in me and help me to be satisfied in Him with all things, He is my portion.
“My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”