Most, by now, have read/heard/or seen the news about a 29 year old woman with stage 4 brain cancer and has decided to end her life (but not committing suicide) on November 1 of this year (you can find the article here). This has been on my mind since yesterday and I thought I would start this post in a semi-apologetic way, but I can’t bring myself to do so. You see, to apologize for my stance on this would speak over my words in ways that would totally undo what I am saying. I don’t want to whisper God’s Word, and I especially don’t want to whisper His Word only when I feel like I will be met with all around agreement. I want to shout out what He has to say, not what I do and about all things, not just when it will be met with a round of applause. So, I may not have the popular opinion and I may offend some, but the Lord never promised in His Word that it would never offend others, in fact it promises the opposite in 2 Timothy 3:12-15 which says,
“Indeed, all who desire to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, while evil people and impostors will go on from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have firmly believed, knowing from whom you learned it and how from childhood you have been acquainted with the sacred writings, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus.“
So, moving on, if you had asked me 3 years ago about euthanasia I would have been standing behind her and saying, “Good for her and I wish more states would follow so she wouldn’t have had to move to get the help she needed.” As we all know though that as you age and grow as a person, and in your faith, things change. So, over the past few years my view on this has changed because I have come to the realization that this life is not mine, and it is all God’s timing and every day is a blessing. The Lord is the only one who knows the plans for my life and He has me in His hands. I know you are all probably sick of me quoting this verse (at least those who frequent my blog), but Jeremiah 29:11 is such a reminder to me that His promises are good and are to benefit me in accordance to His will.
It is just so upsetting to me because I believe she was given a few months ( don’t quote me on this I haven’t been able to re-watch the video right now) from her doctors before she will die or begin to progress to where things are painful and in constant suffering. It hurts me because that doctor can not speak to every single case out there and that doctor can not say for certain. She could have a year or longer before things went south, and instead she has picked a day to die. She says, “There is not a cell in my body that is suicidal or that wants to die,” she told People Magazine. “I want to live. I wish there was a cure for my disease but there’s not.” I can not begin to imagine the turmoil and the difficulty of finding out you have cancer, then find out it is a terminal cancer, and then find out it is aggressive and you’ve been given a certain number of months to live, but I do know more than a few stories of people who were diagnosed and given a prognosis of a couple years, year, or less for their disease or cancer and outlived what they were told. My sweet sweet uncle passed away from pancreatic cancer after fighting it over a year and I am so thankful that he chose to spend his last days fighting for his life and did not simply give up, had he chosen not to fight he might never have seen me one last time or met my husband or son before he passed. Although I can’t imagine what she must be going through, I can only pray the Lord would give me the strength to trust in Him and fight for my life and for my family. I don’t want to be so greedy and in need to be in control of my life that I would rob the Lord of doing what He would have for my life and take things into my own hands.
I do want to say this, I am not questioning this woman’s salvation or where she is or isn’t going when she dies, but I am saying she is taking control of something that is not our place to take over, and in her decision to cut her life short she is choosing to miss out on opportunities the Lord could use to grow her or have her come to Him. How sad that people are applauding her and not mourning her decision to have predetermined and set a date to pass away. I am praying for her and for her family and I pray, if it be His will that she would have a change of heart and mind and place her life in His hand.