My Confession

So, it’s the day before we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ, our Savior and instead of focusing on how marvelous and wonderful meaning of that day I have been fixated on finding the right outfit to wear/ being disappointed and discontent with how I look and feel. Then came the overwhelming feeling of guilt that my thoughts are being consumed on how I look and not on the fact that Jesus came down to earth, lived a perfect and sinless life, died on a cross bearing all of our sin and the wrath of God so that we would not. He didn’t stop there, because death could not be victorious over our God so 3 days later up from the grave (well tomb) He arose again. THAT is what I should be fixated on, not what size dress I will be wearing, or what people might think of me because I won’t be wearing the perfect little dress or heels. I’m ashamed that I allow myself to get sucked into such things. Furthermore, I realized (though deep down I of course have always known) that God loves me no matter what size I am or how I look. Yes, God calls me to honor my body as a temple and I know that is something I have fallen short on time and time again and it is something I am working on, but that is not what He fixates on. The Lord cares about our heart, many times over eating and food/weight issues are related to issues of the heart, but He loves us unconditionally and He does not want us to obsess over things like our weight, what we’re wearing or anything like that, He is zealous and wants us to focus on Him.

Romans 8:11

“If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.”

2 Corinthians 5:17

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

It can be so hard to fixate on the things of this world, whether it be material possessions, or our weight, or food, or so many other things, but all of these things will fade away and will not matter in the afterlife. What is important is the soul, our hearts. That is what God cares about and that is what we should care about when we meet with others.

Colossians 3:2

Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.”

Matthew 24:35

Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away.


2 thoughts on “My Confession

  1. I know the feeling. I was focused on Christ heavily this season, but also on a drama over friends I had created in my mind. That’s my thing of the world: over obsessed with having or losing friends and all that goes with it. Colossians 3, however, is a chapter I’ve been working on for a few months now. I’m glad to see you reprint some of it here. It’s important not to lose focus off of God that much.


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